What will BTS's RM be doing post-disbandment?

Pile 1: Hierophant, Temperance rev, 9oC rev, 7oP rev

Pile 2: Sun, Empress rev, 6oW, PoS rev

Pile 3: 3oC, Chariot rev, Devil, AoS rev

Overall: HM rev

There is a ridiculous amount of quiet anxiety swilling about in this man. I have a strong feeling that he's invalidated it to himself to the point of thinking something along the lines of "its not bad enough for me to need something for it". But unfortunately he's been living with it and it fucks with him, quite a bit.

In the beginning, he's going to be turning every which way for some sense of guidance, counsel, for advice. I have a feeling he may even leaf his way through the spiritual in search of an answer. Even trying to compile different philosophies from practices and denominations in an attempt to find something that just makes sense. He's going to endure a strong bout of depression and not know how to work with it.

He may still post or make appearances in an attempt to show that everything is fine when it's definitely not. He may spend some time just sitting in his room, dissociating because he can't siphon the same joy out of things he used to do. I nearly neglected to mention that people will notice something is off about him, but he's going to make a valiant effort to ignore those who reach out and reassure them everything is good. This time, it's really not going to work out for him in that regard, his walls won't be insurmountable. It's going to be painful for those closed to him and his loved ones because he's just not going to be able to talk about it.

Eventually it's going to dawn on him that although he was apart of BTS, his identity as Kim Namjoon isn't disappearing because BTS dissolved. This is when there will be trouble surrounding him. Because he's going to actually find the time to explore himself as a person, a being. There will be a lot of stans who are going to hate the thought that the Namjoon they knew was a person, not this overseeing, omnipotent mentor.

There will be a lot of disgusting scrutiny on him for talking about and showing things that are simple and bring him joy. Their expectations of him will be for him to be and present as this mysterious, all intelligent, yet unreachable figure. This is where his ability to close his ears will serve him well. This hate is going to hurt him, but he's going to keep doing his thing.

Eventually this will lead to a pilgrimage of himself, where he takes time to stand in the mirror to understand Kim Namjoon, and realize that RM was someone he turned on and off. RM is not who he really is, or ever really was. He's going to be going through a tremendous amount of ups and downs. A painful and beautiful molting of the persona that's evolved around his true skin. I do see him doing a few selective show appearances on some things like day time tv before he settles into himself and where he wants to go. Stay tuned for the followup.